Currently, my holiday mode is ON. Yeayy to me!!hehe..As usual, Unimas is the advanced university (after UTM) that always release final result earlier..always making the students freak out..including me T.T
How was the result??
you know that I'm not gonna tell you guys the result but yeah, tak capai target..again T.T but Alhamdulillah, I passed all the papers :)
I was thinking all day long what was my mistake? what was my problem? Were I too busy with other things? Which part need to be fixed? Was that not enough effort of mine? Lots of question flashing in my mind..I asked my friend were I too lagha with dunya things or what? I have no answer for that...
But then, one of my friends whatsapp me about how to face sadness all that. For sure she never know I was down with my result till I told her. She woke me up with her words. And I felt soooo relieved. You know why? Because we're in the same boat. She realized me about the knowledge. The pointer doesn't really matter but still a matter because it's an indicator showing you how much effort have you put in your studies. Obviously not that enough.
I was worried about the pointer but I never thankful to Allah for giving me the chances to study, to gain the knowledge and to apply them in my daily life. Too much merungut and feel so much comfortable in your comfort zone aren't good habits to be practiced. and OVER confident is killing me!!Allahu..May last semester 3 be a good lesson for me to improve myself in the future.
and maybe I was lacking of tawakal...hurmmm..and I just read and FB status from Yasmin Mogahed and this quoteis very deep and worth to ponder :)
"Useful knowledge is that which makes you grow in the fear of Allah, increases you in awareness of your defects, deepens your knowledge of the worship of your Lord Most High, decreases your desire for this world and increases your desire for the life to come, and opens your eyes to the defects of your actions so that you guard against them."
--Imam Ghazali
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